… it really is the little things in this life that mean the most, that have the largest impact on us in the end.
As I was driving home from work tonight, listening to my new Bonobo album, ‘Recurring’ came on over the speakers and instantly, I became washed over with an intense array of emotion. Thinking of several little moments in my life that have all added up to resemble such a beautiful collection of memories, I started to tear up. I thought of solo road trips down the Californian coast, palm trees, sunshine, smiling with friends, drinking beers while basking in the sunlight, holding hands, sharing special moments that only those there with you, sharing in that very exact slice of time, will ever be privy to. Concerts, sushi dinners, driving around in the city, just listening, participating in non-talking, taking in every bit of minutiae all around us…. consciously observing, truly getting to know someone, feeling loneliness and realizing how beautiful it is….
I am truly blessed and am so incredibly grateful for the wonderful family + friends that have enriched my life over the years, adding to the jigsaw puzzle that is my life that’s constantly expanding and growing as new pieces find their way in…
I’m reminded of the last few lines from American Beauty, when Kevin Spacey’s character looks back on his life with the utmost gratitude:
“….it’s hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst… And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life… You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure. But don’t worry… you will someday.”